Poker face...

The night is cold and dark.
No one else on the road at this midnight.
While mine college life is on the vacation mode.
Everything,
no matter human being or animal are releasing their daily pressure,
by those dramas, Facebook, surfing internet, rushing for the last minutes assignments, etc.
While I,
still the same.
In loneliness,
in college and also friends' group.
repel from friends?
not really can use this word to say so.
but the truth is.
But i am slowly repelled from my friends.
The world in college is so realistic.
No money, no talk.
The higher status symbolic, the greater of respect you can ever have.
The fame, the name, and also your heart.
This does not means anything.
This only the thing  I wanna say so to the people that so fake.
Poker Face.

Tears from my eye side

Today night,
my heart bleeding.
Because my brother been hit by using a metal type hanger.
You aren't the awesome bro!
You hit my brother so badly.
You know he is a hyper-active child,
and you hit him badly by banging my room door.
When I saw his wounds and scars,
my heart again and again bleeding.
Why you treat him like this?
He is just a child,
no matter how wrong is he..
He just a child.
You can't punished him like that...
Unfair...
If your brother been hit like this,
how you will feel?
You will act cool or?
You always says that you got guts,
but sorry bro..
your guts use in the wrong place.
And u are PETTY person in this planet that I ever know.
I want to treat you just like how you treat my bro,
but I know I can't.
Because I have no such energy to fight against you.
I felt that I am useless.
I can't ever protect my brother from your act.
I felt ashamed.
Especially I can't do anything.
Humiliated ..
Insult by you.
I can't scold you.
I can't beat you.
Because I know I can't fight against you.
You, just my cousin bro.
But, in my house.
Please respect!
Without respect, home harmony being destroyed.
If my mum did not catch me to argue with you.
I guess now already a mess.
I want you to apologize to my bro.
But I know recently you listening to a phone call.
and your laughing on the call,
makes me vomit.
Again~
I hate your personal behaviour/ attitude.
Instead your parents still thought you are a good boy,
and they do not know your real personality.
But, I know.
That's enough.
And again : Please do not insult my parents again in front of your parents and relatives.
You really sick on it.
And you makes everyone felt that we are the bad people in the world.
Ya, I admit.
I am bad.
But, I am not as bad as you did.
Cuz, I will not hit my brother with wounds.
:(  sad night.