Am i stupid?

Iagree i am little bit retard....
I agree i am little bit stupid....

Bad in basketball shooting...
study........
communication....
and more....

But,
i still dunno y u wan to hurt me again n again....
alwayz stop me away...
dun let me try....
cheek me...

u,mum,
i reali dunno wat i can do...
i felt away from u ....
i am under control....
wat u said i aso follow...
i try to do.....
but u scold me wif those bad thing...
but i had try my best ...
not to go out wif my friend...
refuse outing...
but...
i wan hav my own memories wif my friend...
i knoe u trying to protect me...
but i am fifteen this year...
can u juz giv me a little bit of freedom....
u make my like a child who still under control by u....
can u juz giv me some times for me with my friend...?


frenz,
i knoe i m 'trouble' for u all....
i felt sorry too...
n retart....am i rite?
but i juz wan to cheer u all....
like tat our friendship wont me far distance....
n tis is my wayz to keep pur friendship without breaking....
i hope u all knoe....

while u ,unknown,
i can felt ur ''un-acception''...
i knoe what i should do....
juz be normal....
without cure anyone....

CHEER WIF STUPID HERE!!!!!!~
Dear ,can u hear me?

27th sept...surprisessssssss

oh my god....

today i was so excited....

full of happiness n aso sadness...

thank 4 my frenz tat giv me ''surprise''

tat in my gang...

Luv u all ...

No birthday song,

even a present...

is quite a sad newz...

but lastly u all bring 4 me...

thankz...

CHEER WIF me , my frenz!!!~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF...

my mind is ~zero

Zero...

Wat mean zero???

attitude zero?

mind zero?

study zero?

friendship zero?

family zero?

or care zero?

i dunno.

tis two weeks,
i rethink our relationship between''her'' n i....
alr 3 to 4 months ...
she didn't talk wif me...
care me...
she aso didn't wan to see me...
i knoe....
my mind is full of questions...
???
is tat i should fren wif her back...
all my anger is goin cold...
is tat my problem???
i dun thk so....
but,if she will talk wif me...
i thk i will trying to save...
cuz...
i wan to see changes...
i hope she will giv me a surprise...
refren wif me....
i goin to 4get all d nonsense...
in our trouble class...
4give....
4give her...


while my mum..
i dun wan to say lah...
nag me...
dun let me go out wif my fren...
said those newspaper got many case....
girls been murders...
internet spoil our mind...
i will balance my mind lah...
u keep stopping me playing computer...
but i won't...
tat no mean i betray me ,rite?
oni on blog i can juz release my anger...
but no blaming anyone...here
from now...
except i gonna to kill the human being...
haha~
holiday gonna over...
Sad holiday....poor holiday....
CHEER!

without u of my life..o_o

I can juz breath without u...
without a friendz...exspecially u ,better tat lost a pen...
u,give me a lot of memories....
happy n aso sad...
but,never mind...
cuz wat i trying to save is useless...
cuz u never try to save tis friendship...
so,i leave u away....

when tuition,
r u think i wan to sit beside u...?
if no place...
i would sit beside u...
a wet place...
so now,i rather sit beside k.h aso wont sit beside u....
i dun wan to disturd ur stuff...
i dun wan to hear ur stuff...
i am trying to leave away from u ...
without any ''yi han''...
Bye,no comment!!!
















My birthday is coming soon...
27.9 ,but nobody know...
today i take care canteen..
there was someone birthday..
a lot of them celebrate wif her...
although there was no any cake at all....
but, i felt happy...
i no comment on tat.....
i felt lonely on tat.....0_0
i dun wan present ,not celebration...
i oni wan u all know tat ......
Singing birthday song for me...














Y.X ,i know u cuz ur boy friend...u dun wan to talk wif me...
i felt sad...till i dun wan to go library...
i hope u can forgive me...
but tis advice is out from my mind...
i hope u can know it...
forgive me...
i would harm u..
as ur friend...
i juz oni can advice...
without scolding...
if i scold u,u can hear...
i felt happy too....
but, u not understand...
i am waiting u ,my dear friend...
u phoned to him...
i knoe...i know u non-stop loving him...care him...
fall in deep love
but i hope u can control..
or balance between study n love..
no comment on u...
juz hope u can forgive...

thank 4 my friend tat k me...~by a sad girl

Yesterday,

i saw ur message...

i cried in front of the computer...

i m selfish,

yes,recently yes...

ur message damn hurt me...

till my mum saw tis situation...

my mum didnt tell anything n juz scolding me,

asking me is tat a idiot...

why u oni knoe how to k other feeling?

u k them,but is tat those people will k bout u?

no true friend wont die...

but no friend wil die...

tis world no true friend at all...

nope..

suddenly i felt awake ...

my mum scold me as idiot...

IDIOT...

I felt i really like a retart...

juz like wat m.y said...

no naive,no innocent at all...

juz a retart idiot...

but today,

i saw ur sms,

i feel excited,but my heart was also worried...

if i refriend wif u...

how bout her??

I am trying to say...

Although i said i will try my best to friend wif her...

but my heart no tat meaning...

i dun wan...

i told her alr...

advice her...

but,she dun wan to change..

not my fault...

she really dunno wat she wrong...

like tat...

so,i decided to leave her away n follow them...

actually tis is no ur fault...

no becuz of tat thing...

i wont k or busy body in ur stuff...

no jealous any more...

juz between her n i...

i felt tired wif her...

tired wif her...

However,thank for u ...le ming,joo yee 1,joo yee 2,may yee,n mei lin...i really happy tis week...u gave me the strengh...no repel me ...thank...

From ur retart friend,

k.m

freedom,pls!

I juz like a little birdy,

tat lives in cage..

under incourage by parents...

no freedom..
why i can't juz like other people...

go out wif my dearest friend..

group study,shopping,class party,friend celebration..

no,no,no,...

why..

is tat i still young??

Or i too naive n innocent??
I am 15 tis year...

juz giv me little bit freedom..

now,i lack of freedom..

while..

tention,stress coming forward me...

i wan my teenager life was wonderful..

can u juz let me...

BREATH.....

Juz let me like the picture..

smile everyday,no wif sadness...

... ...

Why u alwayz do somethingz to hurt me...

again..n...again...

I tried my best to friend wif u..

to communicate wif u..

to know well u..

but,u still doing d same wrong..

while i still blur wif u...

i can't know well u..

cuz u alwayz close minding n dun wan let me explore...

is tat u care bout our relationship or not??

U won't know when u hurt me..

or i hurt u..

u won't know why i emo..

u won't know why i will suddenly get angry...

cuz u didn't understand me..

L.X oni came for how many months...

She knew me well tat u...

i knew u for 3 years..

but i still not understand u...

I try to control myself ..

dun k wat u trying to hide d secret...

between her...

dun k when tuition Maths period ,

wat u two done...

hide d paper here n there...

Moreover,

i probably want to tell u ..

i dun k alr...

wat u chat wif her..

i dun k..

Dun think i dunno..

I juz act like dunno...

and,

pls dun thk me as a person tat easily get angry n all...

let me tell u ...

FROM NOW,I WON'T K UR STUFF N BISNESS between she n u..

And,

i juz act u as my best friend...

but,

u still try this again...

i will tell u..

Dun let me act like L.m ...

Follow d steps wat she had done to u...

although i am soft -heart 2 friendship...

although u wrong,

lastly i m the person who said sorry...

this post is writting bout u n pls dun try to push aother people into d water...

I know u know wat i mean,rite???

i really dun wan to break our triangle friendship...

pls,pls,pls...i dun wan to be tat kind of people n dun let me try to do tat...

*tis post feeling oni 4 2day...i will 4get..after tomorrow..n dun tell me or talk bout it at school...i want our life now,kk?*