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I tried my best to study some subjects which is not belong to me at the first place.
Study something I hate the most last time.
Interested with something I do not ever know I will in my entire life.
The incident are fate.
Like coincidence.

But, something is not coincidence.
No matter how hard you try to avoid,
no matter how hard you try not to afraid,
no matter how hard you try not to give up,
it is super duper hard.
Counseling will stands only temporarily,
but not hard enough.
Not hard enough to persuade someone to follow what you think.

Become a psychologist, is hard above the sky.
As I do not ever know how to control my own emotions,
do not know how to solve the problems,
and I do not know how hard to give up from this family.
I hope to study overseas, and leave my family here.
Let's them alone.
But, I can't do so.
I still have my youngest brother and sister.
I still have them.
They still need me,  under my care.
I have no ways to escape.
Escape from this reality that I desired not to happen in my life.

I am very tired, super duper tired.
Plus, very stressed out.
Please!

Birthday appreciation. What??!? I hv no ideas what to put for title. (Don't judge, just read)

My birthday ended perfectly.
No party, no cakes, no extra presents from friends.
Purely DINNER with family.
It is fun, especially this year.
And thank you for your wishing.
You gave me surprise too without realising.
Hahhaha....
Such a good brother you are,
remember my birthday.
HahahaHahA.....

I know I keep mumbling that my birthday is coming soon.
But after the long long semester break, I thought you totally forgotten.
Luckily you remember.
If not, Carmen Lim gonna knock your head.
Just kidding, how dare I knock your head o?
Your texting seriously have warmed my heart.
Hahaha....
This year's birthday only can use one word to describe "SWEET"
All my friends and THE ONLY YOU are so sweet to wish me.
Last and no least, 
                  THANK YOU "LILY FLOWER"'s wishing. 
Every year, your message or wishing seems to be the most SWEETEST in the world.
REALLY?
YA, YOU ARE.
The longest wishing message, it seems that you never forget me. XP
You are the most "true" person to wish me.
Once again.
Thank you Lily flower.
Always view my blog secretly.
I hope you can find your another behalf as soon as possible.
Since you are so cheerful and active. :)
You will, so do I.
By the way, I still missed your midnight wishing.
Hahaa.. :)

An early and unexpected birthday 25092014

Supposing tomorrow is my birthday, 

due to the semester breaks fall on next week,

so I didn't expect to get any celebrations AT ALL.

However, it is glad that my super 38 friends celebrated with me.

With 2 cakes. Gosh! Hahaha..... Imma gonna fat soon.

We just know each other only after enrolling the course, specifically on this March intake orientation. 

But you guys just...

                       TOTALLY AWESOME!!

You guys really did something that out of my expectation. 

Thanks for everything you guys have done for me. 

Thanks for lending a hand, when I was in need.

Thanks for every consolation or strength that you guys have gave me. 

Thanks for accompany me to finish every single task, such as assignments, mid-term, and finals. 

Thanks for final checking for my assignment, although you guys are busying with yours too.

Thanks for the caring and your existence in my university life.

Thanks for fetching me in such early morning to school from two little emo guys, but treated me so kind.

All the thanks that I have made are unlimited. 

Last and no least, thanks for remembering my birthday.

Add-ons:

***        I know you guys are suffering thinking what favour of cake should you guys buy for me in the bakery, but finally you guys found it, because of the reason: "Carmen Lim loves Green Tea Latte in school, so Green Tea should be suited her more."

             Secretly, I want to tell you guys what was my expression totally looks like at that time   -_-!

                          JUST KIDDING!!! Don't mad lah. 

***       Actually you guy's surprise failed, because someone accidentally slipped out of "his" mouth.  

***       Now I only realised I got one picture of one of my cake, another one in everyone's stomach.

                                Don't judge me NOOB pls. 

                 "CUZ BIRTHDAY GIRL IS THE QUEEN OF THE DAY/ WEEK."

HAHAHAHAHA...

Geram betul right?? Hahaha....

Then continue your "geram-ness" ba! (^.^)

I do not know. I do not know.

Semester 2 began so fast and now i already in the middle of Sem 2.
Time flies fast, doesn't you think so?
I thought both of us will be super duper busy until no time to meet each other.
But, yay.
You still meet me at Lunch Box, although we sit at different corner, with different buddies.
I thought everything was coming to the end at last semester, but it seems nope.
There are a lot of memories came into my mind, suddenly.
Because of you, I break my limit.
Watch the very first horror movie in my life.
The thrill of the horror movie in the cinema.
The warm embrace.
It imprinted in my mind.
No matter how, once i followed my friends to the cinema for a movie.
Your shadow came into my mind.
Impressive, right?
I do not know.
I just enjoy the feeling of missing you.
The person who sit besides me that always console me when I was scared.
I know in that moment you were scared too.
But you still console me with a hug.
I thought it won't happen again.
But....
Once again, it happened.
Yesterday, I go Sunway for movie.
And my friend accidentally bought the wrong ticket,
and this became my NIGHTMARE.
I was scared because it was a horror movie.
Again my head reflexed to the right side, just like the first movie with you.
I realised something.
The seat was empty.
Again I know.
You are not with me this time.
I am alone.
Without your hug, and without your consolation.
The feeling is so strong.
The feel of missing someone.
It is so unbearable.
I thought I give up long time ago.
Don't I?
And why my heart still pain?
I do not know. I do not know.

Sem 2 (Y)

Semester 2 is just begun.
So far so good, if you are not including my family issues.
Family issues are so annoying.
Ignore that, please!
I do not want any unhappy things "ruined" my mood of writing.
However, Carmen is proud to be a Semester 2 student.

*Clap Clap*

Carmen's plan 8)

Now is my semester break and I got a lot of plans for it.
First, I have to go for an oral checking.
Go dentist to check weather I am suitable for doing my braces.
Oh Gosh...
Braces...
Here's the beginning.
Next, I am going to my Penang trip with my coolest Psych gang.
Backpacking... From KL --> Ipoh --> Penang.
By train --> van --> cycling.
Eat, play and get fun from the whole journey...
Don't ask me now itself, because my trip's journey is on next week.
Afterward, I need to buy my books.
I haven't redeem my 1 Malaysia voucher in any bookstores.
T.T
And now it is going to be expired soon.
Oh Gosh...
The bad news is, the voucher can't be redeemed with stationaries by using so.
Oh Gosh...
You think I am a typical bookworm or what??
I am not.
This is impossible for me to finish my RM250 voucher on that books.
Hahahaha.....
I know what kind of material I am.
I don't think so I will be a good reader of some of the fiction books.
Honestly...
And,
I am not that hardcore person...

So, flip the back on...
Waiting for saviour to save me now.
Not me, BUT MY BOOK VOUCHERSSSS....
Hahaha.....

Desire to become 那个女孩

”韩庚 那个女孩“
I wish to become "那个女孩"...
I wish to become the girl...
I hope I can get embrace from the one I love and at the same time the person that loves me.

Suddenly in love with this song and found a song that can really makes me cry.
Everyone hopes for this kind of relationship, but failed to get.
Love seems to be easy, but hard to be reached.
"So near yet so far."
The best thing to describe how love touch in everyone's heart.
Here's the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9wvDV9GMRks