Badass Day

Time flies,
I know that my pre-university life is gone.
It will never be a back, but a throwback.

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Today is my first blogging in 2014,
I know this might be a brand new opening for me.
I have sick from 2013 till 2014.
I think this is enough for me to brush up my new year.
For me,
sick is not a problem,
but depression is.
I am gonna depress after my Chinese New Year.
I don't care whether you believe or not.
But I am sure for me, is YES.
Totally YES.
Why?
You might be questioning: WHY?
Because my brother is going to join back to our big family.
Eldest brother!
Yeah!
You might be questioning again.
He is your family member and why are you depressing?
This is because I can't think my life or my family live WITH him.
We never live together before.
And he,
suddenly appear and ask to live with us.
This makes a different for me and my family itself.
I couldn't live with someone I do not know well with my family.
I do not want the noisy life back.
Argue non-stop because of him.
Maybe you are right.
He is your brother, you know get know with him well.
But, this is really unbearable.
How I feel is?
I have no any relationship with him.
For me,
this is an invisible forcing.
Forcing to regain the relationship that we hard to recover back.
I do not know what can I do?
But just earning more and more depressing.
More and more sadness behind the mirror.
:'(