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After i saw the blog...
i really wan to cry...
is tat she really very lonely...
or she is crazy of her friendship...
Today's morning,
i went n clean my room...
i saw a piece of paper...
inside the papaer wrote our conversation...
Tis conversation wrote when we two taking parts in prefect interview...
tis convesation of cuz private...
cuz tis conversation ...
our relationship become worst...
tat time only lah...
i realised friendship is very important...
so,
i start to care about other..

but,someone still no realised tat...
maybe she didn't understand me...
or wat...
our relationship become worst n worst...
when she needs me...
she will join me ...
if not,
who cares!!
I hate her actually...
till now,
she feel alone...
she came n join me...
i knew tat they two relationship is getting worst n worst...
is tat ishould help them...
or dun cares they ''shit bisness''?

it tat break the relationship like tat???
or ....

tention....life

it is my secret!!!

so, dun tell anyone accept u see my blog,

dun tell me...

Start...

When i receive u blog,

i felt very angry tat times ,

but,

when i understand ur problem n feeling....

i knew tat u really same as last time...

like the grass on the field let the human stepped on it ,

i knew tat actually u aso very tention...

But when i think about u,

i very stress n tention,

u good in studies and co-co,

a good prefect,good AJK in Chinese Society,
a good treasurer in class,a good secretary,

i felt tat i was trampled by u....

Chinese Club president all r control in ur hand ,

while i only can see u from a side...

see ur happiness n ....

sometimes,

i will think ...

why i so lazy n didn't put all my effort on it...

is because i scare of u ?

i know u always respected by other...

n i only can watch a side...

Last Thursday,all the prefect go their class and take care of the discipline...

i saw that mun cheng n other form 2 prefect talking wif u...

smiling n laughing at there...

i felt alone...

Then i knew i only their senior n only a normal friend,

a very normal ,normal friend...

i felt i only the waste....

Johnathan,Phang hate me ....

i knew ...

i won't care about them...

feeling or wat...

become a prefect ,

u should sacrifies...

tis is my last time mision,

but now,

i think how best i do are aso useless...

cuz not nobody saw my sacrifies...

only saw u....

u r attractive in our prefect group...

cuz u active...

good in communication...

while i...

now i tried to learn how to communicate wif them...

i only the begineer in the games...

i won't get lose in it...

walk in front bravely...

At here,

u must congrate me ...

i already put down my ''puppy loves''...

all my childish attitude,

i am trying to change...

i hope i can like the 'ppl',(if u got see my last blog u will knoe)

as normal..

like the fairy tale...

love forever..

i dunno

I really dunno...
dunno y i love tat person...
i really dunno y...
y i will love wif the bad boy...
it is oni my imagination...
i really very sad when i knoe tat he had couple wif a girl...
But,i control myself ....
think it as oni my imagination in my heart...
tis is no real ....
oni a story,a tale...
a non-fanstatic tale...

I thought in my heart oni those princess fairy tale...
suddenly i knew tat,
i won't n aso can't...
be the fairy princess in tat far ,far world...
i hope i oni the bird...
flew over the sky ...
freedom ....
ran out for the stupid place...
tat near in my heart....

my heart really pain for it ....
till now...
hurt n pain more tat last time when i love them two...
now,
i release my hand from them...
cuz,
they didn't care bout me,
know well bout me,
ever worse we didn't know each other...
i hope i can hav a really good couple tat stay beside me...
joy me,make me feel the happiness ....
when i sad ,he care me...
i know it was possible ...
so,i juz think it like my dream,
imagination oni...
maybe one day it will desire my wishes...

i

I knoe u hate me...
I knoe u backstep me...
I knoe...I knoe...I knoe...
SELFISH is not a wrong...
At here,
I wan to tell u a story...
Although is about a lady,
i hope u can continue reading...
I saw a lady ...
She is my neightbour...
Stand beside the gate...
smoking n 'f' wif her phone...
At here,
I knoe tat,
she is bad,
like a real''along''
Shout everyday...
Shout to her husband...
Scold her daughter...
One day,
her daughter smoking...
she cane the daughter...
the daughter cried n pleased her mum...
but,
the mum still non-stop caning her daughter...
the mum cried...
u knoe y????
She dun wan her daughter like her...
smoking...
like a bad women...
See...
how selfiish is the mum...
some will ask...
y the mum didn't let the daughter smoke???
She aso smoke,rightt???
a bad mum aso willl cane her daughter...
to save her daughter's future...
how about u to friendship???
I dunno...
I really dunno..
I dunno y u can change when the person call u to stop...
our relationship...
n break so easily....
u knoe me more than her....
4years...
more that 4 years...
u can break it suddenly...
I dunno...
I only knoe ...
I am a SELFISH girl...
tat live in ur heart...
~selfish ending~

4 my frendz xxx..

This was no the first day ,second day ,she hate me without reasons.
Actually now you are very annoying me.
You dun wan to share your happiness 2 me.
I could find another friends than better than you.
But ,i didn't...
Cuz you still my good friend in my heart..
i was so comfused why you dun wan 2 talk wif me...
Cuz of wat ...
You dun wan 2 tell me ...
i can't know it 4ever...
ever...my life..
can u tell me personally or send me a massage??
i know after you saw this massage ,
u won't reply me..
but ,blog just like my wall,
write n draw whatever i wan,
no the end,no life...
simply end when i wan to leave...

todays exam

Today,

is moral exam...

i dunno how 2 do...

i so stupid ..

useless...

i felt i wil fail in this exam...

but how...

who tell me no need 2 study...

i am in stress...

suffering the pain...

i hope i can bye 4 2morrow..

free me ...

free me...

compication

Long time i didn't write for my blog...
Cause buzying ..
Now ,
my relationship with my friends hav some complicate...
I dunno why they do that to me ...
I aso dunno why they wan to hurt me like that ...
It that i did something wrong to them..
I dunno ...
I eally dunno..
I actually dunno...
I hope i can stand beside the beach ...
Forgive them what they did to me...
If hav a drink that let me forgeet all the sad things..
I think i would like to hav a try...
Forget and free myself...
maybe in the ocean...
dreaming in it...