Degree Week 3

As everyone knows, pre-university leave in silent.
And now is University's turn.
This blog did follow me since my high school itself.
From a childish little girl becomes mature lady.
No meant to praise myself.
But I felt proud of myself.
Degree Week 3...
GAMBATEH!

Badass Day

Time flies,
I know that my pre-university life is gone.
It will never be a back, but a throwback.

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Today is my first blogging in 2014,
I know this might be a brand new opening for me.
I have sick from 2013 till 2014.
I think this is enough for me to brush up my new year.
For me,
sick is not a problem,
but depression is.
I am gonna depress after my Chinese New Year.
I don't care whether you believe or not.
But I am sure for me, is YES.
Totally YES.
Why?
You might be questioning: WHY?
Because my brother is going to join back to our big family.
Eldest brother!
Yeah!
You might be questioning again.
He is your family member and why are you depressing?
This is because I can't think my life or my family live WITH him.
We never live together before.
And he,
suddenly appear and ask to live with us.
This makes a different for me and my family itself.
I couldn't live with someone I do not know well with my family.
I do not want the noisy life back.
Argue non-stop because of him.
Maybe you are right.
He is your brother, you know get know with him well.
But, this is really unbearable.
How I feel is?
I have no any relationship with him.
For me,
this is an invisible forcing.
Forcing to regain the relationship that we hard to recover back.
I do not know what can I do?
But just earning more and more depressing.
More and more sadness behind the mirror.
:'(

Graduation

Time flies, one year passed,
now is the graduation for me.
I miss my current status.
Everything...
no matter friends, studies, ..
I live how am I now.
Graduation separates us.
But, it won't stop us from connecting each other by FBing...
I hope our friendship lasts longer.
Cheer! My friends!

Sorry

I do not know an invitation can cause such interrupted for you.
I am sorry.
I hope you come, because I wish my best friend will be around to accompany to celebrate such special celebration with me.
I am sorry.
I hope I can try to make the time more flexible to everyone. However, this built up a lot of problems such as no consistence of time.
I am sorry.
I scare if I did not invite my old friends, they will most probably forget me.
I am sorry.
I am not so concern and thoughtful, as I did not take a deep thinking before doing something.
I am sorry.
I have nothing to say, but just keep say sorry to my best friend.
What you had say. Is true.
'Why so desperately want people to join ar~'
Because I know if I do not step one step out.
I will most probably lost a best friend in my life ever.
This Birthday,I guess I have to celebrate alone,
as everyone is busy.
Again I cried.
Why my tears fall on my hand?

15092013

September now,
yup...
Still have 13 days...
then you is a birthday girl...
but this year you have to face your birthday alone.
You know why?
Cuz everyone is busy.
Hahahahaa....
They all are busy.
This is always happen, I don't blame them.
New environment, new life.
College and Pre-University always busy.
Add on, I can't think a reason that how should I blame them.
They did try their best.
Hahahahaha...
I have no idea what am I doing.
Only my tear.
Tear?
Hahahaha....
Why should I tear?
I have no idea,
cuz the tear is just flooding my pillow when I was sleeping yesterday.

Book fest in KLCC

It is glad to chat with my friend yesterday. We had a great talk in the Book Fest, KLCC. KLCC totally amazing and huge. Bundles of books from different countries which is cheap. A lot of discount and also getting my favourite author's signature. nOW, I am feeling great !

Poker face...

The night is cold and dark.
No one else on the road at this midnight.
While mine college life is on the vacation mode.
Everything,
no matter human being or animal are releasing their daily pressure,
by those dramas, Facebook, surfing internet, rushing for the last minutes assignments, etc.
While I,
still the same.
In loneliness,
in college and also friends' group.
repel from friends?
not really can use this word to say so.
but the truth is.
But i am slowly repelled from my friends.
The world in college is so realistic.
No money, no talk.
The higher status symbolic, the greater of respect you can ever have.
The fame, the name, and also your heart.
This does not means anything.
This only the thing  I wanna say so to the people that so fake.
Poker Face.