Carmen's plan 8)

Now is my semester break and I got a lot of plans for it.
First, I have to go for an oral checking.
Go dentist to check weather I am suitable for doing my braces.
Oh Gosh...
Braces...
Here's the beginning.
Next, I am going to my Penang trip with my coolest Psych gang.
Backpacking... From KL --> Ipoh --> Penang.
By train --> van --> cycling.
Eat, play and get fun from the whole journey...
Don't ask me now itself, because my trip's journey is on next week.
Afterward, I need to buy my books.
I haven't redeem my 1 Malaysia voucher in any bookstores.
T.T
And now it is going to be expired soon.
Oh Gosh...
The bad news is, the voucher can't be redeemed with stationaries by using so.
Oh Gosh...
You think I am a typical bookworm or what??
I am not.
This is impossible for me to finish my RM250 voucher on that books.
Hahahaha.....
I know what kind of material I am.
I don't think so I will be a good reader of some of the fiction books.
Honestly...
And,
I am not that hardcore person...

So, flip the back on...
Waiting for saviour to save me now.
Not me, BUT MY BOOK VOUCHERSSSS....
Hahaha.....

Desire to become 那个女孩

”韩庚 那个女孩“
I wish to become "那个女孩"...
I wish to become the girl...
I hope I can get embrace from the one I love and at the same time the person that loves me.

Suddenly in love with this song and found a song that can really makes me cry.
Everyone hopes for this kind of relationship, but failed to get.
Love seems to be easy, but hard to be reached.
"So near yet so far."
The best thing to describe how love touch in everyone's heart.
Here's the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9wvDV9GMRks

World cup Love + Hate

Since this is the new beginning of me,
and I should take the challenge as a part of my life.
Life never be in your favour.
Always and always.

Not awkward situation after the rejection.
Bros are bros.
We are just alike fantastic!
Plus, this World Cup waves pull me into the bad nightmares!
Gosh! I still got a bundle of exam to overcome,
and YOU come in the wrong timing.
You make my day in worst, but at the same time in good.
SPORTS are the only thing that I still can chat with him.
Sometimes, we will argue what and what, so and so!
"Dive...Not counted as a good ball.."
"What the hell...You think you really the coach arh?? >.< hahaha..."

Besides that, I did something awesome!
I always sleep like a PIG,
and because of the World Cup fever...
I managed to wake up during the midnight!!!!
It alike DURIAN RUNTUH !!!!
Hahaha....Sorry for insane....
I know today I am happy + insane.

And I love myself so much today!!!  :p

You will never know my pain, if I did not ever tell you what is the wrong of me.

You will never know my pain, if I did not ever tell you what is the wrong of me. 

I am so suffering in this month. 

Although this is already past a month, but it still kills my heart. 

Rejection of it makes me hard to reveal my heart to another person. I scared the feeling being hurt again. This is painful and I really do not want to get through it again and again. Just like a cycle. But it is impossible. The days are the days. 

Laugh. I did laugh in front of my friends, always and always. 

A psychologist say: "If a person laughs too much, even at stupid things, she or he lonely deep inside."

As a result, I personally proved the statement is truth. 

But, why can't you give me a hope? 

A hope maybe enlighten me. 

I know you just do not want to give me a fake hope.

Since short term pain better than log term pain, but still it kills me.

I know. 

When the days come unexpectedly, it is hard to push it away, because you cannot bear of the seduction.

 And I am the type of girl with unstable willpower enough to overcome the matter. 

I am such a loser, I admit. 

This is not a good sign of me to startup my new relationship.

 It imprints in my heart. 

The scars are deep. I have no ideas how to get through it. 

Pain and sorrow alone with the cold weather + heavy rain.