i quit....

i quit from pengawas game...
quit becoming a perfect....
i thk n thk so many thingz...
is tat i suitable to become a perfect...
lastly,i did my decision on FB...
tat is letak jawatan...
of cuz,tis is no because i m a copy cat...
is because i hate perfect lifestyle...
no money untung lagi mau kena marah o...
Becoming a perfect is such a waste....
waste energy...study time....
how i can suffer tis 4 last three yearz....?
so i decide quit n balance my study....
done well in my study ....
not as weak like now...


PMR result is damn 4 me...
cuz i didn't put all my effort in the exam...
menyesal sekarang...
so i have to accept lol....!


my love....

argue...ment....

i juz post tat blog yesterday....
i thought something will be different....
alr 3 days they dun wan to talk to each other....
oni call me to pass the message to each other....
i juz they post-women or their bridge....
i wan to put down....
cuz i wan to break my head....
better ran to oversea rather stay at here...
live myself or leave me in a room....
let me crazy or die even best....

while u,
thank for ur comment....
i still think u can be back n start a new 'light' wif her....
although i dunno at had happen between u two...
but i know....
u two still love wif each other....

u,
u hate me...
never mind....
i can juz one eye open,one eye close....
oni i can do is cheer u up...
by my retard's favourite action....
or JOKE....s
i hope u can stop tackle me from the FB....
cuz my emotion is unstable....
my heat in the body will release one day ......
u think oni u can angry me..?
and i wouldn't do tat ...
juz stop wat u do now...
''Saya tak kacau awak..,u jangan sesekali kacau saya''
cuz not everything i can stop fighting wif u in school or wat...
i hope u know wat i talking about...
stop all ur hateness to me....
cuz i m not SPK in ur hand ....
""NOTICE:I AM NOT SPK OR HER FANS.....""

u,my best fren in school....
u teach me many thing...
i juz knew tat i am so stupid ...
altough we knew not longer tat them,...
but our work....are good better than other....
cheer my fren...
to change the world ....

Break...freeze....

tis week...

got some many couple break down..

my cousin....my fren.....

and aso my best,best fren in my class....

i can see they still luv each other...

although i dunno y they wan to break down...

i felt sad....

cuz the relationship can easily brak....

but,
i still hoope them can be good fren or wat?

u ,

i ask u so many times...

but u juz giv me a simply answer...

no..no..no..

reason is :no feel to him now...

i knoe u juz said...

but u veri k him....

juz dun lie lal...

if u reali dislike...

ignore it...

u again...

i knew u will view my blog....

alr 6 months u didn't talk wif me properly n k me....

i knoe u angry ....

but...

u reali dunno y i angry.....?

or u juz ignore our relationship....

i dunno lah,,,

ur wish....i can juz ......receive....

tis week,

i found i lost my friendship,love n study....

i am loser in everything....

friendship....

i still in trouble....

scare be repeel by fren...

love....

i found but scare to ask....

cuz i thk tis love is still unstable by now...

trouble unstopped coming soon...

i dunno wat can i do....

juz be myself.....

i gonna crash my head ...

by family....

i thk i will ran away from the house....

i tak boleh tahan lah...

argue...argue ....agrue....

u two makee me crazy....

i dun wan to live in the broken family...

i hope u knoe..
i juz wan peace....

y u two can't do tat?

Give me some space n peace.....

in study...bisness...at home....?

let me smile....

take snapshot...

be happy teenage in life....

Am i stupid?

Iagree i am little bit retard....
I agree i am little bit stupid....

Bad in basketball shooting...
study........
communication....
and more....

But,
i still dunno y u wan to hurt me again n again....
alwayz stop me away...
dun let me try....
cheek me...

u,mum,
i reali dunno wat i can do...
i felt away from u ....
i am under control....
wat u said i aso follow...
i try to do.....
but u scold me wif those bad thing...
but i had try my best ...
not to go out wif my friend...
refuse outing...
but...
i wan hav my own memories wif my friend...
i knoe u trying to protect me...
but i am fifteen this year...
can u juz giv me a little bit of freedom....
u make my like a child who still under control by u....
can u juz giv me some times for me with my friend...?


frenz,
i knoe i m 'trouble' for u all....
i felt sorry too...
n retart....am i rite?
but i juz wan to cheer u all....
like tat our friendship wont me far distance....
n tis is my wayz to keep pur friendship without breaking....
i hope u all knoe....

while u ,unknown,
i can felt ur ''un-acception''...
i knoe what i should do....
juz be normal....
without cure anyone....

CHEER WIF STUPID HERE!!!!!!~
Dear ,can u hear me?

27th sept...surprisessssssss

oh my god....

today i was so excited....

full of happiness n aso sadness...

thank 4 my frenz tat giv me ''surprise''

tat in my gang...

Luv u all ...

No birthday song,

even a present...

is quite a sad newz...

but lastly u all bring 4 me...

thankz...

CHEER WIF me , my frenz!!!~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF...

my mind is ~zero

Zero...

Wat mean zero???

attitude zero?

mind zero?

study zero?

friendship zero?

family zero?

or care zero?

i dunno.

tis two weeks,
i rethink our relationship between''her'' n i....
alr 3 to 4 months ...
she didn't talk wif me...
care me...
she aso didn't wan to see me...
i knoe....
my mind is full of questions...
???
is tat i should fren wif her back...
all my anger is goin cold...
is tat my problem???
i dun thk so....
but,if she will talk wif me...
i thk i will trying to save...
cuz...
i wan to see changes...
i hope she will giv me a surprise...
refren wif me....
i goin to 4get all d nonsense...
in our trouble class...
4give....
4give her...


while my mum..
i dun wan to say lah...
nag me...
dun let me go out wif my fren...
said those newspaper got many case....
girls been murders...
internet spoil our mind...
i will balance my mind lah...
u keep stopping me playing computer...
but i won't...
tat no mean i betray me ,rite?
oni on blog i can juz release my anger...
but no blaming anyone...here
from now...
except i gonna to kill the human being...
haha~
holiday gonna over...
Sad holiday....poor holiday....
CHEER!

without u of my life..o_o

I can juz breath without u...
without a friendz...exspecially u ,better tat lost a pen...
u,give me a lot of memories....
happy n aso sad...
but,never mind...
cuz wat i trying to save is useless...
cuz u never try to save tis friendship...
so,i leave u away....

when tuition,
r u think i wan to sit beside u...?
if no place...
i would sit beside u...
a wet place...
so now,i rather sit beside k.h aso wont sit beside u....
i dun wan to disturd ur stuff...
i dun wan to hear ur stuff...
i am trying to leave away from u ...
without any ''yi han''...
Bye,no comment!!!
















My birthday is coming soon...
27.9 ,but nobody know...
today i take care canteen..
there was someone birthday..
a lot of them celebrate wif her...
although there was no any cake at all....
but, i felt happy...
i no comment on tat.....
i felt lonely on tat.....0_0
i dun wan present ,not celebration...
i oni wan u all know tat ......
Singing birthday song for me...














Y.X ,i know u cuz ur boy friend...u dun wan to talk wif me...
i felt sad...till i dun wan to go library...
i hope u can forgive me...
but tis advice is out from my mind...
i hope u can know it...
forgive me...
i would harm u..
as ur friend...
i juz oni can advice...
without scolding...
if i scold u,u can hear...
i felt happy too....
but, u not understand...
i am waiting u ,my dear friend...
u phoned to him...
i knoe...i know u non-stop loving him...care him...
fall in deep love
but i hope u can control..
or balance between study n love..
no comment on u...
juz hope u can forgive...

thank 4 my friend tat k me...~by a sad girl

Yesterday,

i saw ur message...

i cried in front of the computer...

i m selfish,

yes,recently yes...

ur message damn hurt me...

till my mum saw tis situation...

my mum didnt tell anything n juz scolding me,

asking me is tat a idiot...

why u oni knoe how to k other feeling?

u k them,but is tat those people will k bout u?

no true friend wont die...

but no friend wil die...

tis world no true friend at all...

nope..

suddenly i felt awake ...

my mum scold me as idiot...

IDIOT...

I felt i really like a retart...

juz like wat m.y said...

no naive,no innocent at all...

juz a retart idiot...

but today,

i saw ur sms,

i feel excited,but my heart was also worried...

if i refriend wif u...

how bout her??

I am trying to say...

Although i said i will try my best to friend wif her...

but my heart no tat meaning...

i dun wan...

i told her alr...

advice her...

but,she dun wan to change..

not my fault...

she really dunno wat she wrong...

like tat...

so,i decided to leave her away n follow them...

actually tis is no ur fault...

no becuz of tat thing...

i wont k or busy body in ur stuff...

no jealous any more...

juz between her n i...

i felt tired wif her...

tired wif her...

However,thank for u ...le ming,joo yee 1,joo yee 2,may yee,n mei lin...i really happy tis week...u gave me the strengh...no repel me ...thank...

From ur retart friend,

k.m

freedom,pls!

I juz like a little birdy,

tat lives in cage..

under incourage by parents...

no freedom..
why i can't juz like other people...

go out wif my dearest friend..

group study,shopping,class party,friend celebration..

no,no,no,...

why..

is tat i still young??

Or i too naive n innocent??
I am 15 tis year...

juz giv me little bit freedom..

now,i lack of freedom..

while..

tention,stress coming forward me...

i wan my teenager life was wonderful..

can u juz let me...

BREATH.....

Juz let me like the picture..

smile everyday,no wif sadness...

... ...

Why u alwayz do somethingz to hurt me...

again..n...again...

I tried my best to friend wif u..

to communicate wif u..

to know well u..

but,u still doing d same wrong..

while i still blur wif u...

i can't know well u..

cuz u alwayz close minding n dun wan let me explore...

is tat u care bout our relationship or not??

U won't know when u hurt me..

or i hurt u..

u won't know why i emo..

u won't know why i will suddenly get angry...

cuz u didn't understand me..

L.X oni came for how many months...

She knew me well tat u...

i knew u for 3 years..

but i still not understand u...

I try to control myself ..

dun k wat u trying to hide d secret...

between her...

dun k when tuition Maths period ,

wat u two done...

hide d paper here n there...

Moreover,

i probably want to tell u ..

i dun k alr...

wat u chat wif her..

i dun k..

Dun think i dunno..

I juz act like dunno...

and,

pls dun thk me as a person tat easily get angry n all...

let me tell u ...

FROM NOW,I WON'T K UR STUFF N BISNESS between she n u..

And,

i juz act u as my best friend...

but,

u still try this again...

i will tell u..

Dun let me act like L.m ...

Follow d steps wat she had done to u...

although i am soft -heart 2 friendship...

although u wrong,

lastly i m the person who said sorry...

this post is writting bout u n pls dun try to push aother people into d water...

I know u know wat i mean,rite???

i really dun wan to break our triangle friendship...

pls,pls,pls...i dun wan to be tat kind of people n dun let me try to do tat...

*tis post feeling oni 4 2day...i will 4get..after tomorrow..n dun tell me or talk bout it at school...i want our life now,kk?*

wat is the meaning of friendz...

the worst week for me...

This week is the worst week for me...

In friends,family,doing somethin...

it won't be success...

Maybe i am useless...

Actually,

i wan to be the lonely princess,

free from doing n helping mum at shop n home...

free from scolding me,

free from using me like idiot,

free from hearing talking about me...

free from this world or my home...

i am not annoying or blame everyone...

only i want to ask:

why u all not believe?

At school,u two sharing urs secret,

besides tat,

u can tell pxx jxxx more than me...

i think maybe we hav some problem we haven't solve...

if not,

why u can't share ur secret together..

wif u ,wif me n l.x

is tat be trustable...

or treat me like a idiot...

i dunno...

i really dunno...

maybe u can think me as a annoying person...

at home,

i tell u all i didn't lie,

but,u still scolding me...

i think i hav problem ,

wat problem?

maybe mental problem...

yes,MENTAL PROBLEM...

I freaking fake on it...

While another u,

when u close wif me,

xx,will jealous...

to prevent to close wif u..

i try to ...

but,it is diffucult...

however,i will try my best to stop closing wif u ...

talking wif u...

i aso will stop to help ur two relationship...

i know however i say,

u won't hear..

so ,ur n her stuff ...

i dun k by now....

actually ,

when i saw ur blog tat u want to be pengerusi of chinese club...

i really wan to tell u...

not only u want...

me too...

but,i know it was very diffucult...

m.c n u were very close...

friendly...

but,i will try my best to get it...

i will put all my effort to try it...

although who will be...

but i will accept the answer...

think positively..

some will ask:r u still love him?

let me answer to u...

Yup,i love him a lot...

but now,

i will try to put down...

forget all the nonsense between him n i...

think for future...

studies n so on...

last week,

i think i should not blame to the teacher...

changing my place wif her..

maybe...

i sit wif xxx ,

i will be more concentrate to study...

cheer wif my seat...

''bling,....''cheer!!!

*my blog is confidental n public,pls dun be angry if u saw it...it is only my feeling for today...

tomorrow ,maybe i will be a different person...if somebody will angry me n dun wan to friend

wif me...i can only accept,cuz my opinion is...friendship will not be change if ur friend was a understand person*

is tat me untrustable???

When we two is a very good friend...

suddenly,..

u join wif us...

u share wif her ur secret...

till,she tell me..

shw want to sit wif u..

more tat me...

i knew tat..

i been throw out...

n i been alone ...

cant tell wif u...

cant share my secret wif u...

i felt i am out from my group..

juz like u last time..

is tat me really unstrustable??

u cure my heart...

how can u be like tat...

is tat me r u friendz...

i will change...

i wont tell...

but,hope u giv me a chance..

to more understand u...

although i am38..

but,i will make the change...

HEADACHE of u 2

I saw the blog ..

their blogs...

although they blog very complicated...

but,

wat they want to pronouns...

i know...

not only me,i think many people know it...

if u two really want to friend back,

pls ,pls,pls...

dun be so silly...

wat generation now??

pls be open minding....

although the friendship break before...

but if u really hav the effort...

save this relationship lah..

dun blur at there...

a spider will spinning its web although rainning or windy day,

not because it hardworking,

is because it hav the effort to save its ''home''...

i feel boring now...

tired when i saw u two....

i dun wan tis situation continuing in my brain...

imagine urself ...

who will suffer???

oni u n her...

u n her...

Sick again..
tempereture 39' c
bad lah...
i hate sick...
feel lazy aso...
i heard tat u already break your love wif him...
dun noe happy or not??
~SIMPLY WRITTING~

sick girl's writting...

today,
i juz like sick cat..
sleeping on the bed..
till now,
i juz online ...
for fun...
then,
i realise tat sick feeling was bad...
but,
i think...
how about the friendship ''sick'' to them..
freezen ...in the refrigerator...
without medicine treatment...
sometimes,
i feel mad to them...
but,
i aso feel sad to another friend...
her situation juz like me...
juz like how xx deleted me at Facebook...
how she delete me in anywhere...
dun talk wif me ...
dun care wif me..
even worst dun see u...
of cuz,
tis is my real story..n experience...
so,i know...
i know the pain of friendship...
really,
u will cry if u r me...
although now she add me back...
i think i would know...
dun ever put ur whole effort to it...
cuz,
if u put ur whole effort...
u will fall down badly...
....hope all the friendship in the world can be forever...

Attn

If i wrote some thing to blog ,
i would like to say sorry,..
i thought u won't see my shit blog
but u saw it...
although my blog is open for everyone...
pls be secret n confidental...
hateness is useless...
must solve is the important...


SORRY

non-tittle

After i saw the blog...
i really wan to cry...
is tat she really very lonely...
or she is crazy of her friendship...
Today's morning,
i went n clean my room...
i saw a piece of paper...
inside the papaer wrote our conversation...
Tis conversation wrote when we two taking parts in prefect interview...
tis convesation of cuz private...
cuz tis conversation ...
our relationship become worst...
tat time only lah...
i realised friendship is very important...
so,
i start to care about other..

but,someone still no realised tat...
maybe she didn't understand me...
or wat...
our relationship become worst n worst...
when she needs me...
she will join me ...
if not,
who cares!!
I hate her actually...
till now,
she feel alone...
she came n join me...
i knew tat they two relationship is getting worst n worst...
is tat ishould help them...
or dun cares they ''shit bisness''?

it tat break the relationship like tat???
or ....

tention....life

it is my secret!!!

so, dun tell anyone accept u see my blog,

dun tell me...

Start...

When i receive u blog,

i felt very angry tat times ,

but,

when i understand ur problem n feeling....

i knew tat u really same as last time...

like the grass on the field let the human stepped on it ,

i knew tat actually u aso very tention...

But when i think about u,

i very stress n tention,

u good in studies and co-co,

a good prefect,good AJK in Chinese Society,
a good treasurer in class,a good secretary,

i felt tat i was trampled by u....

Chinese Club president all r control in ur hand ,

while i only can see u from a side...

see ur happiness n ....

sometimes,

i will think ...

why i so lazy n didn't put all my effort on it...

is because i scare of u ?

i know u always respected by other...

n i only can watch a side...

Last Thursday,all the prefect go their class and take care of the discipline...

i saw that mun cheng n other form 2 prefect talking wif u...

smiling n laughing at there...

i felt alone...

Then i knew i only their senior n only a normal friend,

a very normal ,normal friend...

i felt i only the waste....

Johnathan,Phang hate me ....

i knew ...

i won't care about them...

feeling or wat...

become a prefect ,

u should sacrifies...

tis is my last time mision,

but now,

i think how best i do are aso useless...

cuz not nobody saw my sacrifies...

only saw u....

u r attractive in our prefect group...

cuz u active...

good in communication...

while i...

now i tried to learn how to communicate wif them...

i only the begineer in the games...

i won't get lose in it...

walk in front bravely...

At here,

u must congrate me ...

i already put down my ''puppy loves''...

all my childish attitude,

i am trying to change...

i hope i can like the 'ppl',(if u got see my last blog u will knoe)

as normal..

like the fairy tale...

love forever..

i dunno

I really dunno...
dunno y i love tat person...
i really dunno y...
y i will love wif the bad boy...
it is oni my imagination...
i really very sad when i knoe tat he had couple wif a girl...
But,i control myself ....
think it as oni my imagination in my heart...
tis is no real ....
oni a story,a tale...
a non-fanstatic tale...

I thought in my heart oni those princess fairy tale...
suddenly i knew tat,
i won't n aso can't...
be the fairy princess in tat far ,far world...
i hope i oni the bird...
flew over the sky ...
freedom ....
ran out for the stupid place...
tat near in my heart....

my heart really pain for it ....
till now...
hurt n pain more tat last time when i love them two...
now,
i release my hand from them...
cuz,
they didn't care bout me,
know well bout me,
ever worse we didn't know each other...
i hope i can hav a really good couple tat stay beside me...
joy me,make me feel the happiness ....
when i sad ,he care me...
i know it was possible ...
so,i juz think it like my dream,
imagination oni...
maybe one day it will desire my wishes...

i

I knoe u hate me...
I knoe u backstep me...
I knoe...I knoe...I knoe...
SELFISH is not a wrong...
At here,
I wan to tell u a story...
Although is about a lady,
i hope u can continue reading...
I saw a lady ...
She is my neightbour...
Stand beside the gate...
smoking n 'f' wif her phone...
At here,
I knoe tat,
she is bad,
like a real''along''
Shout everyday...
Shout to her husband...
Scold her daughter...
One day,
her daughter smoking...
she cane the daughter...
the daughter cried n pleased her mum...
but,
the mum still non-stop caning her daughter...
the mum cried...
u knoe y????
She dun wan her daughter like her...
smoking...
like a bad women...
See...
how selfiish is the mum...
some will ask...
y the mum didn't let the daughter smoke???
She aso smoke,rightt???
a bad mum aso willl cane her daughter...
to save her daughter's future...
how about u to friendship???
I dunno...
I really dunno..
I dunno y u can change when the person call u to stop...
our relationship...
n break so easily....
u knoe me more than her....
4years...
more that 4 years...
u can break it suddenly...
I dunno...
I only knoe ...
I am a SELFISH girl...
tat live in ur heart...
~selfish ending~

4 my frendz xxx..

This was no the first day ,second day ,she hate me without reasons.
Actually now you are very annoying me.
You dun wan to share your happiness 2 me.
I could find another friends than better than you.
But ,i didn't...
Cuz you still my good friend in my heart..
i was so comfused why you dun wan 2 talk wif me...
Cuz of wat ...
You dun wan 2 tell me ...
i can't know it 4ever...
ever...my life..
can u tell me personally or send me a massage??
i know after you saw this massage ,
u won't reply me..
but ,blog just like my wall,
write n draw whatever i wan,
no the end,no life...
simply end when i wan to leave...

todays exam

Today,

is moral exam...

i dunno how 2 do...

i so stupid ..

useless...

i felt i wil fail in this exam...

but how...

who tell me no need 2 study...

i am in stress...

suffering the pain...

i hope i can bye 4 2morrow..

free me ...

free me...

compication

Long time i didn't write for my blog...
Cause buzying ..
Now ,
my relationship with my friends hav some complicate...
I dunno why they do that to me ...
I aso dunno why they wan to hurt me like that ...
It that i did something wrong to them..
I dunno ...
I eally dunno..
I actually dunno...
I hope i can stand beside the beach ...
Forgive them what they did to me...
If hav a drink that let me forgeet all the sad things..
I think i would like to hav a try...
Forget and free myself...
maybe in the ocean...
dreaming in it...

complication

A few months ago,i hav a couple wif a boy.The boy that i unknown ,cuz he is my cousin's friend .How we know each other??Of cuz of this Chinese New Year,the boy took the phone from my idiot and shit cousin lah...My cousin went and gave him without my permission .Ok ,no choice,i thought i can just follow my destint to like the unknown boy .

sorry sorry

At here ,i want to sorry 3A class student exspecially Alvin ,Pak Juin ,Aswary and sorry my class 3B some of the people .I hope u all can forfet me last year and if i any thing wrong u all my scold me .kk. I hope u can go and hear a song named ''sorry sorry ''to release your anger .Thank.

A wish

Chinese New Year is coming soon .All the chinese will start to decorate their home sweet home .It is because cleaning and decorating areone of the culture too .But in my home now is quite normal .Nothing special in my house.So ,i decided to clean my house wif my young sister as a surprise for my father and mother whom was working now under the hot sun .

Yesterday ,i saw my friend hav her own couple .It was great .I hope i can get one too.But ,when i want to get ,it won't come .I think it is not the age yet .So ,i refuse to get one .Last year ,i have 2 best friends.One is a prefect and one is a top10 in studies student.We three are the best friends be4.But ,because of me ,break down the friendship .I dun want to talk about the accident .I so sad of this.If the time can turned back ,i will give them my wish ,not scold .So,...I really want to cry .

My dad and mum ....I als dun want to talk about them .They two like big baby.All thr cat and dog fight jod ,i dun want to say.

I want a valatine's present.I want a handsome couple.If he good to me ,that is enough .But not like dad ,always must nad at him then work like a machine.

At here ,for every body who see my blog .Happy Chinese New Year.



(o.o) ^Chinese New Year !!!

2010 go,go,go fuck Lucia

2010 is a new year .Why my first blog in this year so ...Scold ,hateness and more..Must comment if u know what i said ..kk??

Today,i want to f a people .She thought she very clever like a idiot .Use Japanese to scold me ,i think she never die before.( Ya lol, what u do ,not my bisness ,right)But ,i tell u lah .U stupid face actually very discusting .Dun let me vomitting while i am writing my damn blog here.

Every time ,ask teacher about ur homework .U think u really very good meh...Berlagak at there like a fuck women there.The nick name very suitable with u ,true ??

I dun wan to write lah .Stopped here .Dirty my blog only .Damn ,fuck ,idiot girl .Berlagak u play maple at 200 ps ,fuck lah...only 74 level ..........fuck u in the world ...